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Shana Tova! September 16, 2012

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When I was younger, for every New Year’s I committed to the same resolution—I wanted to be as cool as my sisters. I leave it up to you to decide if I accomplished this, but please keep your opinions to yourselves. I don’t want my sisters to be insulted! Nowadays, my resolutions have matured a bit, and I strive for different things, continuing to learn from my sisters, determined to be as great of a role model for them as they have been for me.

As I hope you all know, the Jewish New Year is upon us. Many of us will be spending time in services, singing prayers that we don’t always understand, seeing old friends we only see this time of year, or trying to keep our eyes open as we listen to longer-than-normal sermons. Many of us are also taking this time to reflect—on the year we are leaving in our past and the year to which we are looking forward. We are also reminded that none of us know what the coming year holds and that life is not to be taken for granted.

I know that I have not been around for too long and I have a lot to figure out about life—but as an almost-28-year-old I have been faced already with many challenges and lessons. It’s ironic how the things that try to keep you from living your life fully only make you want it more. CF has given me a gift. I am always reminded of how precious our lives are and how I cannot take one moment for granted. I know that tomorrow is not promised to any of us, so today I should make the best of what I have. I know to tell and show Eamonn how much I love him, even when I can’t stand to be around him (oh please, we all know it happens)! I know to make sure that our families know how much their support means to us—without them I honestly don’t know what I would do. I know to laugh often. I know to keep things in perspective, however challenging this is for me. Most of all, I know to share my love—as often as I can I try to tell those closest to me how much they mean to me, whether in words or action because as Eamonn loves to quote, “the future is unwritten.”

Cystic Fibrosis has taught me many new life lessons, good and bad. Far more than anything, though, being married to someone with this disease has given me appreciation and perspective on how I choose to live my life every day. Eamonn and I joke often about how lucky we are—that we have a constant reminder of just how vulnerable we all are. Eamonn has taught me to not focus on the negative, whether big or small, but to accept the cards we are dealt and make the most of our hand.

You don’t have to listen to this 27-year-old know-it-all, but just consider that none of us knows what tomorrow will bring. We all know that, but easily forget that, so sometimes a reminder can go a long way! Appreciate today and every moment you have with your loved ones. I certainly have to work on this as well, so for this New Year I am promising to be better and love more. I’ll also be working on making sure I am as cool as my sisters!

I hope you all have a very happy and healthy New Year, filled with love.